This week commences the start of week 3 of couch to 5K (C25k). The running intervals are getting longer and there are less walking intervals. Compared too when I started running and now. I feel it’s little bit easier… Endurance wise, I’m in a good spot. However, physically I’m still a little hesitant to push myself and that’s where the mental aspect gets a little tricky.
There’s a battle going on between my inner troll and myself. My inner troll is constantly trying me. He’s says things like; I’m not pushing myself hard enough. He tells me that I should run faster and longer. He says to forget the intervals, the treadmill, and taking it slow and easy… I should be running races by now. The rational side of me knows that is all crazy talk and deep down inside I’m really afraid.
I’m afraid that I will get back healthy only to injure myself again. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to run races and crush goals anymore. My Achilles is about 65-70% healed and I only have 1 more physical therapy session left. I’m just afraid that I will get out on my own and mess up all the progress that I‘ve made so far. And that doubt is what my inner troll is eating for breakfast. :::Shakes head::: How can I inspire someone when I’m still trying to work out my own inner issues??
At this point I can’t say if I’ll get some more PT session. I’ll have to wait and see how it pans out after the New Year. But I want you to know that I’m still fighting the good fight, I’m still striving to crush goals. I’m just going at pace slower than what I’m use to…
Until next time,
300 Pounds and Running
